Selfishly I cry, for a night free of pain for her.
A morning where she sees her chest full and not gashed.
Where hopeful eyes peer from beneath flowing locks.
Not a bald princess seeking the hating to stop.
Yes selfishly I seek a night of sleep with out worry.
Waiting for her torment to end will it just hurry.
Weakly I stay behind as she sweats out another treatment.
This wildfire filling, killing her body and will.
Waiting for radiations Proton killing spray.
Then, some day, she’ll sport recreated chest.
Hair, will again fill her lofty crown and her lovely face surround.
Selfishly, I want it now. I’m tired and from this act I’d Ike to take my bow.
But, for her,I remain…faithful strong, crying just tell same.
This heart bursting with pride for her strength.
Whimpering in thus darkness am I seeking Gods face.
Judge me not for my failures, but for this great woman I love.
She was sent me from above and of he love I’m not worthy.
But struggling and selfish I will continue.
One night, one day, one week…could it be..
Cancer free and this selfish heart gets its rest.
Thank you for listening…
WAM

Hello
From the mountains I’ve returned to you
On these knees seeking you
Knowing your peace
Knowing the hope of your voice
Knowing your love
I thank you
Pain filling her body
Pain filling her mind
Pain leaving her
I thank you
The hurt
Like waved
Wash over her
Pulling away with
With the last of her strength
I thank you
For her
For this trial
We shared our peace
Your hope
With our faith
Tired
But willing
Strengthen us
Fill us with your energy
Renew her
For this ongoing war
Against this cancer
I thank you
Oh, and amen
WAM

Hello
Road weary I return to your place
Humbly kneeling seeking your grace
Absent are the hours of joy
When laughter filled her
Like a child with a new toy
Hacking heaving
Groaning in pain
Never far from restrooms
It is plain
Wildfire racks her form
Leaving her not smiling
Crying only as a norm
Depression fills her waking hours
Slumbers dreams take
Hold with nightmares powers
Still se returns
Ready for another
Wildfire infusion
Beating cancer her monicker
I thank you
Tired as I am
I cannot compare
With her drained form
There in our bed.
Love finds seasons
For success
I thank you
For allowing us this
Test.
I thank you
For her strength so true
It grows from her faith
In you
I thank you
Oh and amen
WAM
#pinkmantoes

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Each motion sweeping around weaving a delicate crown.
Bound flesh in colorful forms where flowing locks were once found.
Scattered by wildfires reasons, memories begin this forgetful season.
Still she smiles, laughs then cries as her femininity seems to die.
Struggling with her faithful might with treatments changing her sight.
Sudden fits of herniating heaving ends her stand and leaves her kneeling.
How long, how many more till on this troubling cure she closes the door.
Wanting for her pains release her hope returned faith released.
Simple prayers in her place could I stand to give her rest but for gods plan.
Again she stands weaving hope with trembling hands.
Binding loss with faiths eternal strands, earthly scarves and flowing ends.
My love defeats cancers cursed plans one breath, one prayer her body mends.
My love, my life, my friend are you ready for wildfire to end.
My prayers for you forever I’ll send.
WAM

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Hello
Standing in a self made desert I return
Parched lips whispering
What should come as a shout
Life’s cloaks snagged
On nettles and cactus
Scratched and bleeding
I thank you
For your blood
For her love
For our love
Doubt warring on faith
Fearing ambushes hope
Anger rewards misdirection
Yet still
You are here
Her strength
Mine
I thank you
Pains gnawing at her
Slowing her thoughts
As her body
Frustration builds
Then
Prayers fill her heart
Giving us a place to start.
In strange beautiful lands
Finding new friends
Sharing faith
I thank you for this
This challenge
The more it’s said
The more I understand
And
I thank you
Oh, and amen
#pinkmantoes
WAM

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Hello
Pensively posing questions I return
Each day new pains
Each day new success
Each day I can only pray
Others are seeing
Seeing their own loves
Loves walking through
This briar laden valley
Unable to ascend the summit
Giving up
For many is easier
Easier than pressing on
So I ask
Why
Would it have been better
For someone
Like me
Not always the best example
Often
Angry at you
For my own failings
Then
Then I sit back
Holding her and think
Thank you
I thank you for this faith
Faith challenge
She is up too it
I
I pray I am as well
I thank you
For your faith in us
Your hope
Your peace
Only
I ask
You lesson her pain
Those like her
Lesson their pains
And please stop others
Others who volunteer
My relative had that
Fought five years
Good luck
Makes her laugh
Tends to make me angry
Then again
I thank you
For all who pray
Share
And say
God is with you
I know he’s healing you
I thank you
Oh and amen
WAM
#pinkmantoes

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Hello
Radical Follicle reduction returns me
Returns me smiling and crying
On these calloused knees
Before your nail scared tree
I understand the pain
Watching a loved one suffer
Seeing healing
And recovery
Seeing her willingly release flesh
Followed by open air reduction of hair
Telling others of her cancer battle
I thank you
For her
For her fight
Even in her darkest night
I see her through it fight
With your might
This cancer she’ll beat
As the angry
Evil in her body retreats
I thank you
The heart of a lioness
Strength of a bear
Faith of Job
I know you’ll carry her there
There to the point
And back again
I thank you
For this woman I love
And your gifts
In this chaos
From above
I thank you
Oh, and amen
WAM

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